| | I had dinner with some friends once and they asked me what was the best, most special thing Jason had given me. Automatically, my initial response was to think of something material, and when I couldn't choose the most expensive, most glamourous thing I simply blurted out, "He doesn't really get me anything special!"
Looking back, it could've been the sangria that was talking...but even still, I couldn't believe the words that came out of my mouth. As hard as I say I'm trying to change, when I'm put on the spot, I cannot deliver. I felt so remorseful & materialistic. What sort of impression had I given my friends? I set myself up.
But really I do take his love for granted.
And it's the reason why we occasionally argue...it's all my fault really; demanding him to tell me something
instead of reading the show in between the lines.
But at the end of the day, when I
say my prayers, I never fail to recognize him and all he's done for me. I've learned that although kicking a bad habit or trying to
change may be quite difficult, it's important to acknowledge your flaws
first. Bring them to the light. Make yourself feel guilty. The more you feel disgusted, the less you want to see yourself in that light, so you begin to change.
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